The Reason

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I guess Allah has something else planned for me.

Aller Anfang ist schwer

Alhamdulillah, I generally start to pick up writing again. Sebenarnya dah lama sangat tak menulis. Bukan sebab tak ada idea, bukan sebab busy. Tapi mungkin sebab malas. Malas nak buat assessment untuk hari ini. Tapi bila difikirkan barulah perasan sebenarnya hari-hari ini cepat sangat berlalu. It moves so fast that I don't even realise what had really happen today. Everything was just like a passing wind: unnoticed.

It's really sad that my days are being forgotten just like that. Dulu memanglah rajin mengupdatekan blog dan post topik-topik dan buah fikiran kat facebook. Aber jetzt mache ich das nicht mehr. Ich lasse alles mir vorbei passen, ohne zu überlegen was ich gemacht habe. Aber Alhamdulillah, dass ich jetzt nochmal beginne zu schreiben.

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Wie der Titel laut: es ist nicht einfach etwas zu anfangen. Egal ob es etwas einfach oder kompliziert ist. Aller Anfang ist schwer.

Aber, wissen Sie, dass Alle hängt nur von uns selbst ab. Kadang-kadang Allah dah bukakan hati kita untuk melakukan kebaikan, tetapi kita meletakkan perkara itu ke tepi kerana kita merasakan yang kita akan buat perkara tersebut nanti. Kita tunda perasaan itu. Dan DISITU LAH kesilapan kita.

Itulah godaan syaitan sebenarnya. Syaitan tak membisikkan perkara yang buruk directly kedalam fikiran kita. Mereka akan menyelinapkan pekara-perkara keburukan dalam sekecil-kecil perkara. Ok, mungkin itu tak berapa jelas atau mungkin akan menimbulkan tanda tanya.

Cuba bayangkan one simple situation: pinggan di dapur dah lama bertimbun dan tak terbasuh. Well, the main reason kita tak basuh pinggan-pinggan itu in the first place is because kita malas. Dan bayangkan satu hari kita dapat satu ilham untuk basuh pinggan-pinggan tu.

So in general kita ada dua option:
a) pergi basuh pinggan
b) tak basuh pinggan

Tapi kita nak basuh pinggan sebab that is the right thing. But here is the thing. Syaitan works in a way that they provide a third option: lets do it later because u might have more time.

And we and our nafs succumb to that third option. BAD IDEA

Lama kelamaan kita tak akan basuh pinggan-pinggan tu. Sebab kita tangguh dan tangguhkan perkara yang kita nak buat tu. Jetzt können wir das mit einer der wichtigsten Sachen in unser Leben verbinden: Solat. Well, now u got the idea what i want to talk about.

Bila kita dah lama tak menunaikan solat dan tiba-tiba kita merasakan yang something is missing in our life. Trust me, that missing thing is called solat. Zu sagen, dass wir das später machen konnen, ist nicht der Antwort. Jangan tinggalkan Solat, trust me...

So thats the thing: self control is very important.

Assalamualaikum :D

P.S. Salah satu sebab kenapa aku start balik menulis ialah: jeng jeng jeng: HTC One aku yang baru sampai, hehe :P

P.S.S. Sorry about the grammar. No matter if its Malay, English or Deutsch, I'll always make a mistake.

The Letter bond by strings of Fate seperated by Space and Time

NAIF Karena Kamu Cuma Satu 

Kau yang paling setia, kau yang teristimewa

Kau yang aku cinta, cuma engkau saja

Dari semua pria aku yang juara

Dari semua wanita kau yang paling sejiwa

Denganmu semua air mata menjadi tawa suara ria

Akankah kau selalu ada menemani dalam suka duka

Denganmu aku bahagia, denganmu semua ceria

Janganlah kau berpaling dariku karena kamu cuma satu untukku

Kau satu-satunya dan tak ada dua

Apalagi tiga, cuma engkau saja

Denganmu semua air mata menjadi tawa suara ria

Akankah kau selalu ada menemani dalam suka duka

Denganmu aku bahagia, denganmu semua ceria

Janganlah kau berpaling dariku karena kamu cuma satu untukku

Kau satu-satunya dan tak ada dua

Apalagi tiga, cuma engkau saja

Dari semua pria aku yang juara aku yang juara

Dari semua wanita kau yang paling sejiwa

Denganmu semua air mata menjadi tawa suara ria

Akankah kau selalu ada menemani dalam suka duka

Denganmu aku bahagia, denganmu semua ceria

Janganlah kau berpaling dariku karena kamu cuma satu untukku

Untukku, untukku, untukku, untukku

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Assalamualaikum. Dear Klein,
      To her, whom my heart lies. To her, whom I'll claim, once i've travelled my journey. To her, whom I tied my future to. To her, my wings.

To her, My Future Wife.

      It is really painful, this feeling that I have. I really want you to be here, to see you smile, to sit next to you, to talk to you about almost everything, to tease and being tease, and to cry and laugh with you as much we can together here. But however my dear, as much as I want that to happen, I don't want you to be hurt because this has not always been your dream: to come here to pursue your studies. It would be really selfish of me just to have you for myself here with me meanwhile you are deeply hurt inside, doing something that you don't really want to do. Thus because of that, I had convinced myself that this would only for the best. For me to work my best, here in this land of strangers, and to secure the future that i have planned.

      Remember when you followed me up until i can't see you anymore at the airport. I feel that I really want to grab you at that time and not to let you go. To bring you to my parents and tell them that I want you! But He have other plans. Plans that we can only imagine and anticipate. But I have faith, that whatever plans He have are for the best of both of us. The happy ending/beginning that we have waited for. So my love, I hope that you would have faith in Him too.

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Avenged Sevenfold Dear God

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line

Miles away from those I love

Purpose hard to find 

While I recall all the words you spoke to me 

Can't help but wish that I was there 

Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah 

Dear God the only thing I ask of you 

Is to hold her when I'm not around 

When I'm much too far away 

We all need that person who can be true to you 

But I left her when I found her 

And now I wish I'd stayed 

'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired 

I'm missing you again, oh no 

Once again 

There's nothing here for me on this barren road

There's no one here while the city sleeps 

And all the shops are closed 

Can't help but think of the times I've had with you 

Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah 

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is

To hold her when I'm not around, 

When I'm much too far away 

We all need that person who can be true to you 

I left her when I found her 

And now I wish I'd stayed 

'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired 

I'm missing you again oh no 

Once again 

Some search, never finding a way

Before long, they waste away 

I found you, something told me to stay 

I gave in, to selfish ways 

And how I miss someone to hold 

When hope begins to fade... 

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line

Miles away from those I love 

Hope is hard to find 

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is

To hold her when I'm not around, 

When I'm much too far away 

We all need the person who can be true to you 

I left her when I found her 

And now I wish I'd stayed 

'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired 

I'm missing you again oh no 

Once again...

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      Mia, there is no other better woman out there for me other than you. 3rd of September last year had really made me realize, that you are the only one. The one that holds my heart in your hand really dearly, and I've been holding your's in mine. I wont break you heart! Because it is mine too... I want to keep it, treasure it, keep it in a safe place where only I can have...

      Klein, I will prevent with all my heart from causing you to break. I'll hug you tight, keep you safe... I'm going to make you mine, I'll be you Imam. And I will claim you, when the time has come.

Your Love,

Raphael.

The first Post

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh...
Hello peeps~ How's life?

Yupp, macam yang korang boleh nampak dari tajuk post ni, ini lah post pertama untuk blog baru ni. *blur*

Sebenarnya aku tak pasti apa yang aku nak tulis/taip dalam blog ni. Dah slalu tulis blog pun masih ada masalah ni, hurmmm~. Anyway, in this blog aku nak tulis benda-benda yang close to heart and fun to be read. Maybe what i really want to focus in this blog are things that suddenly just pop up in my mind. Randomness. Perkara yang entah tetiba menyerbu masuk dalam kepala aku ni. 

Nothing interesting perhaps, just the things that i feel like exhaling or maybe it'll be an archive of things I've observed from my surrounding. Its interesting to observe the world. Observing everything Allah had created, seeing things in a different perspective, different angle and point of view, seeing that everything is not always what they seem.

Just as i have said before, i dont really how to start, however i know that a good start is always to start with

'Bismillahirrahmanirrahim'- with the name of Allah, most Gracious, most Compassionate.

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Best sebenarnya dengar keluhan orang lain ni. Sebagai manusia biasa, sebenarnya hampir impossible nak merasai semua pengalaman yang ada kat dunia ni. Thats why i like lending my ears, because not only that I can blackmail help them with their problem, but also aloows me to understand the people all around me. Mungkin dengan alasan yang sama juga, aku selalu act tak kisah dengan orang lain, indifference. This way i can treat everyone the same way, not to judge the book by it's cover. Tapi macam mana pun, sejujurnya, susah sebenarnya untuk tak jadi prejudis terhadap orang lain, trust me.

Some people say that life is tedious. Sometimes it is so bitter that u feel like giving up. But remember life is also sweet, you just have to open your eyes and see everything all around you. Imagine life is filled only with sweetness no pains, the taste will, in the end, be very dull. And perhaps you will get diabetes in the end.*huhu*. You'll end up bored and you'll end up seeing happiness as something invaluable.

Sama kes la dengan nikmat sihat. Bila seseorang tu dah lama tak mengalami apa-apa kesakitan, dia akan mula lupa dengan nikmat sihat and he'll end up taking his health for granted. Allah loves His creation so much that He don't want us to go astray. That's why He gave us sickness and tests throughout our life, so that we won't forget. But yet there are people who crumbles in these tests He gave. Instead of coming back to Him, they ran away and plunged themselves into the depth of despair. Ingat: Allah tidak akan memberi ujian kepada hamba-hambanya jika hambanya itu tidak dapat menanganinya.

"Verily, after every difficulty there is relief" Surah Inshirah:5-6

and also this:

"Hai anakku; janganlah engkau langsung menelan sahaja kerana manisnya barang dan janganlah langsung memuntahkan saja pahitnya sesuatu barang itu, kerana manis belum tentu menimbulkan kesegaran dan pahit itu belum tentu menimbulkan kesengsaraan."(Luqman al-Hakim)

Life is a package of flavors. Savor each and every essence of it.

Denk immer an Allah. Er weiß immer das Beste.